Reviews & Ramblings

Review & Ramblings: Sadie by Courtney Summers

Firstly, I want to thank MacMillan Australia for sending me a review copy of this amazing book, this was a five-star read for me and I am so incredibly greatful for the chance to read it!

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Sadie by Courney Summers

5/5 Stars

This Edition Published March 26 2019 by Macmillan

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Where do I even begin with this book. I was a little skeptical before I began, usually with books that are this hyped, I don’t enjoy them, or can’t get into them. But this book was different. From the first page, learning about how the book was written, I was hooked.

This book is so incredibly sad, it is honest and raw and keeps you on your toes. It is the kind of book that you NEED to keep reading, even though you know, when you turn the page, your heart is going to shatter into a million tiny pieces.

Sadie is such an incredible character, she shows such strength and is wise beyond her years, but that comes from her upbrigning, she never had a chance to be a child, she was born and thrust into adulthood, then parenthood, caring for her younger sister, Mattie. Then her world was rocked, when Mattie was mysteriously murdered. 

Sadie as a character, in the beginning, I wasn’t a fan, I felt that, as in most YA novels, her average-ness was over-played, making her seem like the perfect, imperfect character. But the more I read, and the more I got to know Sadie, the more I realised that her imperfection was her perfection. Her stutter, although appearing to make her weak in others eyes, gave her strength, it was like a secret weapon. People would constantly underestimate her, when really they should have been worried or cautious. Her sense of humour is amazing, dry and sarcastic, just like mine. I think Sadie and I would have gotten on well.

What breaks my heart the most about Sadie is that she blames herself for Matties murder. Not just becuase she knew what  happened to her, as a child was her fault, but also because she was the one who pushed her over the edge, so to speak. She was the last straw, Mattie was looking for a sister, but Sadie was so used to wearing the role of Mother, that she couldn’t revert to being her friend, anymore than Mattie could really expect her to.

We first meet Sadie early in the book, and a quote from this meeting has sat with me, throughout the whole book, I want to share it with you now:

“I live in a place that’s only good for leaving.” Sadie – Page 11

That has sat with me because from the moment we meet Sadie, we know she is going. We know that she won’t be where we think she is. That she has left for good. 

This book is so incredibly well written, even though some of the content is incredibly difficult to read, to process and to think about, it is written in a way that breaks it down, into manageable portions. I absolutely love the way that a radio show or podcast has been written into this book. It modernises it, it makes it exciting to read and it really makes the pace pick up. This books pages turn so quickly, that it is over, and you are sobbing and can’t work out why there are no pages left to read.

I do think it is necessary for me to note that this book deals with some incredibly confronting topics. So let this be a warning for you, this book contains Physical and psychological abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, drug addiction and abuse, alcoholism, and violence. Just to name a few.

These things, although hard to read about, are what makes this book so amazing. Now, don’t take that sentence the wrong way. I don’t like reading about childhood sexual abuse, but what I do like is, how this book creates a conversation about it. It opens the doors for someone to start talking. That is why this book is so important.

If you haven’t read this amazing book, you seriously need to. It will blow your mind. If you are finding it hard to get into, stick with it. It is emotionally charged, a book that you won’t forget and something that is so important, especially in today’s society.

Read the book.

 

As always, thanks for reading.

Julie.

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Review & Ramblings: The Boy Who Steals Houses by C.G. Drews

I have been waiting for this book to be released ever since I saw that the lovely C. G. Drews had written another title! You see, her first book A Thousand Perfect Notes, is a masterpiece that will destroy you, you HAVE to read it!

The Boy Who Steals Houses struck a chord with me as it has a character who has Austism. This is near and dear to my heart because I work with children with Autism, so to see it being represented by one of m favourite authors is so, so exciting.

I was scrolling through NetGalley and saw this title and requested it in about two seconds. I knew I needed to apply for it, even if my chances were slim. But you know what? I GOT IT! I then posted an incredibly …ahem… interesting video on my Instagram story and the rest is history! I am so excited to be able to read this book! And even more excited to be able to read it before its release!

Okay, even more exciting, I got bookmail from Hachette and guess what!? It was a finished copy of this book! I am dead! Actually dead! This book is so pretty and big and real! I am so excited to add it to my collection!

As always, here is the disclaimer letting you know that this review post does include SPOILERS, so if you haven’t read this book, I highly recommend clicking HERE and reading my spoiler free revire on GoodReads.

Let’s get the pages turning!

 

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The Boy Who Steals Houses by C. G. Drews

5/5 Star Read!

Publishes on April 4th 2019 by Orchard Books

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I’m not crying, you’re crying! Wow I am only 9% in and I can’t stop the tears. Avery is such a perfect representation of what it is like to live with Autism. I feel so connected to him after only a few pages and want the best for this little man. Sam, is also such a sensitive soul, who only wants a life for his brother and a home for himself. This book is going to wreck me, I can tell.

Oh wow, their dad is a complete arsehole! What the heck, who takes a child with Austism’s special toy away? The one thing that calms them? Any parent of a child with autism should know this… in theory. And then the worst thing that could happen, happens. The father hits the son, the son with autism. Avery. He hits Avery. While Sam watches from the car, tied in by his seatbelt, unable to help. What a traumatic thing, for each of them to live through. Each of them experiencing the same Trauma from different aspects. My heart is bleeding, this book is killing me.

So amazingly written, when I read ‘And he hits him’ tears ran from my eyes and my heart rate sped to a mile a minute. The way C. G. Drews creates her characters and scenes is incredible. The amount of emotion she creates in a single sentence is amazing.

Oh wow, the Delaineys are such a perfect family! I love how they are so welcoming to anyone who enters their house, that they don’t even question who Sam is. Yes, I can see how that can be kind of dangerous, but for Sam, it was a godsend. He wants so desperately to be a part of the family, to have a family like the Delaineys. To have a dad who cares enough about them to give them holiday jobs, to put food on the table and to feed strange kids that appear at his house.

Poor Sammy, he thinks he has blown it with Moxie, but I think she was just angry, I don’t think he has blown it at all. He saved her baby brother, it was just a shock to see him hiding in her dead mothers study… well I think her mum died, no one speaks of her and so far we have only heard about medical bills… but that is neither here nor there. I think Moxie will come around, if only Sam will man up and go back around there, tell the truth and say he needs help.

Avery, wow Avery, what are you doing!? This is the side of adulthood Autism that really scares me. He is so trusting that he is vulnerable. He just wants to please, to be praised for his hard and delicate work. To have people who appreciate his smarts and abilities. To have a pretty girl interested in him. But he is going to have a huge fall, she is stopping him from stimming, she is introducing him to stealing on a much bigger level, to alcohol, to sex. All things that typically, people with Autism struggle with, all things that are gateways to bigger and worse things. I just want Avery to be happy and to live a functional adult life, but I think to do that, he needs Sam.

I am about halfway through this book and my heart is breaking for Sam, not just because he is homeless and has no one in his corner, but because now, he has even lost his brother. Avery is scared of him, scared of Sam and his fists.

Finally, Sam manned up and went and apologised to Moxie. Wow that girl is deep. She is getting called ‘mama’ by her three-year-old brother because she is basically his sole carer. Which is even more heart breaking when you remember that she is only fifteen. That is the bit that hits me the hardest. Both Moxie and Sam are only fifteen and already they are going through so much, so many aspects of life that they shouldn’t have had to deal with yet. They really are the perfect companions and Moxie’s family is the perfect fit for Sam and for Avery. I just hope that there is a happy ending in there somewhere for all of them.

Wow, okay wow. Sammy Lou has some serious demons in his closet, but he knew that already, that’s why he was running. But he found the perfect family, the family who picked him up when he had no where, the family who treated him like he was theirs and who took Avery in with no questions asked. He found his place in the world.

This book ended on such a cliff-hanger! Not in the typical sense, but in the, so much is happening, and then it just ends…. There are so many unanswered questions, so many more tears to fall and so many things I need to know. I need to know more about Avery, about if he stays with the DeLaineys, takes the job with the dad DeLainey, what happens to him when Sam goes to prison. There is so much I NEED to know! I desperately need a second book!

As always this book is amazingly written, it will pull strings you didn’t even know you had. It is moving and emotionally charged and if you don’t tear up at least once, you are a heartless piece of cardboard (okay not really, some people don’t cry.)

I think what made it so much more amazing for me, on a personal level, is that I can so relate to Avery’s character. I work with children with Autism, every day. It is what I am passionate about, helping these incredibly amazing people to be able to function in the world when they become adults. To help them learn in the ways that suits them, in the less upsetting and confronting ways possible. I see so much perfect real-world aspects to Avery that it breaks my heart. He is such a gentle character, a perfect representation of what typical ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder) looks like. I love that Drews has written this character, there are so many misconceptions of people with ASD and I am hoping that this book helps to alleviate some of those misconceptions.

Sam, don’t even get me started on the depth of this character…. Wowzers. This boy has seen too much for his fifteen years. He is functioning amazingly, all things considered. But I think what draws me to him, is his protective nature, his need to look after Avery, not only because he is his brother and he needs help, but because it is all he knows. Avery was all Sam ever had in his world, his one constant. He needs Avery just as much as Avery needs him. Two broken boys, both in their own special ways.

In wrapping up, you can already tell that this book was such a highlight of my 2019. I loved this book on a soul-deep level and I will be screaming it from the rooftops until I am red in the face. This is a book that everyone needs to read. It may be targeted towards Young Adult readers, but it is something that everyone will enjoy, something that everyone can relate to. Incredibly well written, a writing style that flows so fluidly that you won’t even notice the pages turning and a story that will pull at strings, you didn’t even know you had. A MUST read for 2019!

As always, thank you so much for reading!

Please comment below if you have read this book and what you thought!

 

Julie!